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(TW) I'm close to starting and I'm scared - March 2nd 2022, 08:12 PM
Each day I feel like I get closer and closer to self harming worse.

I used to self harm by punching myself, but eventually that just wasn't enough, and it also annoyed me since it never left a bruise or anything. I feel as though I'm really close to starting to self harm in more dangerous ways (I'm sure you can imagine) and I'm scared, and yet the same time I'm not. It's a paradox. The logical part of my brain is scared because I KNOW it's wrong,and I have the tools to do something far more healthy. But at the same time I'm not, I just want to do it, I want scars, I want to be hurt, all this stuff.

It's so weird, it's so scary. Every day I feel I get closer to doing it.

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