[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]So we go to school together and both got to know each other and flirted at the beginning of the year but then he admitted he liked me and I turned him down (mainly due to trauma and healing an fear). Started therapy and then recently I realized that I think I do like him so my friend helped me an was like you should just tell him that you think he's cool or whatever and like talking to him if he wants to talk more. So I did that and he's like 'yeah I like talking to you too and you're really cute' blah blah blah. So we chatted a bit and then he had to go but now idk what happens cause like I know I'm awkward cause I get scared.

My friend is like so hot and cool and like even tho she's insecure she seems super confident and I wanna be like that but idk how to just be sorta carefree in this situation so can anyone help me out?

Plus when I see him in school it's gonna be weird cause we don't talk much in class and I'm really private about this stuff andd so I don't want him to start talking to me a bunch and then my friends to be like what's that abt cause I moved and I'm not close with any of these people.

And now I'm like idk maybe I don't like him, like this is just kinda weird and I know it's cause I'm scared cause my father was reallly abusive and sexually assaulted me but now I feel awkward andd it's a weird feeling cause I never feel like this. Like I've never liked a guy before and I've only turned them down and this feels almost like I don't have like the same power in a way, idk if that makes sense.

So that's that. Thank you[/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font]