[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]Hello. I’m going to try and make this as short as possible… I am just really struggling badly lately. So basically I met my boyfriend and have been with him for 3 years. He has made me happier than I’ve ever been, and with him everything just seemed to make sense. But the last year things have took a turn…

I am religious. I am a Christian. He grew up as a Christian as well, but is now suddenly very against Christianity and believes it’s evil. He has a lot of anger and has told me science can disprove any God and that “even if God is real he is evil.” He wants to argue with me almost on the daily about this… he brings it up every chance he gets and he is not just asking questions, he is asking them in a way that is very insulting. He is constantly sending me memes that makes fun of Christians too. When I can’t give him the answers he wants he even will call me dumb. ( to put it nicely but he uses another offensive word ) He has called me pretty nasty names for believing and worshipping God.

It feels like he is demanding that I change my religious beliefs. It’s not just me he argues with either… it’s his entire family. He has become obsessed with moving to Mars someday. From the second he wakes up in the morning it is all he wants to talk about. He is obsessed with “humans becoming extinct and wondering how we will stop this from happening.” There is very little room for us to have conversations we both enjoy. It is either religion or science/space.

This is pretty heartbreaking for me. I feel so confused and like I am just begging for him to change and accept me as I am, even though I know with my beliefs I shouldn’t be with him… I just confused. It’s like he wants me to feel bad about myself and he is not respecting me the way he used to. I know many people will read this and tell me to just let him go. And i wish it was that simple for me. I am crying almost daily from how badly this is all hurting me. The constant name calling is just not like him.

This part is a pretty tough to admit. We have been sexually actively in the past. For the past 6 months he has absolutely no interest in it with me. It’s not even the not having sex.. that part of me I have struggled with and I wanted to save myself for marriage and I have failed. It’s more of the why does he not want to? Does he not find me attractive anymore? These thoughts are constantly bothering me. I am beginning to just feel very depressed and like I am losing one of the people that I love the most.

I guess maybe I just needed to post this to get this all off of my chest… I just feel so broken. I don’t know how much more hurt I can take. ☹️[/size][/color][/font]