[Kate*]

There has been serious drama at work lately. Basically, our new GM took over after the old one left and she seems to have it out for me. My last performance review was, according to a manager who knows me and my work "Complete bullshit," They hired a new person and gave them more hours and priority of shifts despite my 4+ years of seniority, while I was on vacation and jury duty (which they demanded 3+weeks notice for), didn't tell me, and then gave me an attitude and tried to flip blame when I confronted her, and claimed it wasn't personal. My hours were suddenly cut in half and I was supposed to not notice?! Then, I find out that this new person is a different manager's sister. And I've gone from almost 30 hours a week down to 10, and eventually it will be 5 a WEEK (supposed to be at least 20). So, long story short, I'm job searching because I'm never putting up with being treated like this again, and the only reason I'm still there is because I want to line up something before I quit.

Why does no one talk about the toll job hunting takes on their mental health?! The harder I try to look for jobs, the faster I spiral, cancel, or completely blow off interviews. But, I'm obviously no longer wanted at my current job, and I have a feeling the only reason I'm still employed is because they can't justify firing me. The change is scary, the change in routine is enough to stress me out, throw in an invisible disability along with anxiety and depression and it's just ugh. I'm limited in radius, I'm limited in capability both physically and neurologically, I know I have poor social skills going into an interview, etc. So much is stacked against me, I'm lucky to even get contacted only to find out the pay is super low or the company has skeletons in it's closet.

This was slightly less urgent a few weeks ago when I thought my hours were coming back up since this is usually the slowest time of year and it rebounds, but the schedule that just came out has me down for ONE SHIFT so I have to get out!