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Unhappy Started cutting again - November 19th 2021, 12:41 AM
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I used to be 2 years clean from cutting. Then I started again a few months ago but once my bf saw the scars he got upset and made me promise not to do it again. I feel so bad about breaking my promise. I love him so much and I know it hurts him too when I do this but I feel like I can't help it. When I'm really upset I start having violent thoughts about hurting myself or other people. I feel like if I don't cut myself then I'll end up hurting other people. All that emotion just builds up yk? I don't have another outlet for it. I know there are other alternatives but I can never keep my mind distracted for long enough. I hate myself. I just want to be happy. I used to smoke cigarettes but I stopped because my bf told me to. But now he doesn't care and smokes them himself. He was the person I got them from but he's moving away tomorrow and I won't be able to see him until I turn 18. I hate my life. Everything's going to shit