[WhisperingSilence]

Yeah thats thing though, I've had DBT and have learned the emotional regulation skills etc but I am wondering how much of my anger is due to learned behaviours while growing up in a dysfunctional family etc and growing up around anger and violence, I do go to kickboxing,karate and boxing classes too... I could try the elastic band/hair tie for anger that might work like rather than exploding maybe I could twang the band? I know I need some sort of my help with my anger... maybe I could ask for some DBT looking at just the emotional regulation skills..... I mean like if I am at home my main outlet is the xbox and playing video games and just like blowing stuff up but I can't take the xbox to football etc, my coach understands that I do have anger issues and never tells me off for my outbursts and does like allow me to calm down etc and has checked on me today etc by messaging me on my phone etc to like check I am ok and am not feeling bad... so I replied that I am beating myself up over it but also made it clear that it wasn't just because of my outburst yesterday as such its something I always do when I get angry afterwards... its like an earthquake and the days after are like aftershocks of just bad feelings.... I also think because I its that time of the month as such that might be affecting things too like I get angry alot but I dont usually cry etc yesterday I was angry and emotional and like cried in front of my coaches and football team.