Hi Lucy,
It's always tough when we're already doing all the right things to manage our mental health symptoms and still find that we're struggling with them. I am so glad the medication is working though, and that you are at a point where you're able to rationalize and understand what is and isn't real.
Aside from us being here when you need to vent, I think you're on a great path to effectively managing your symptoms and as long as you continue to work with your healthcare team and let them know what is and isn't working then you're doing great! We're always here to listen though.