[Everglow.]

Hey there,

Please don't feel like you have to apologise for the way you're writing. The main thing is, you reached out for help when you felt like you needed it. All of this makes complete sense, so don't worry about that.

Everything you're dealing with right now sounds so hard, and I'm so sorry you're feeling so alone. I know that loneliness is a really difficult thing to combat when you're struggling and all you want to do is be heard and helped. I can completely understand where you're coming from, and I hope you know that I hear you and that if you do want someone to chat to, my inbox is always open for you. That being said, I get what you're saying in that you're not sure if you want help. I've felt like that myself, and it's difficult to reach out when you don't know that you're ready for whatever advice a person might give.

If you ever feel like you are ready to talk, you can always talk to people who you don't know in real life if you're worried about adding to someone elses burden. For example, hotlines are an amazing way to do this. The people on the other end of the hotline service are there because they want to help people who need it, and who may have nowhere else to turn.

I know that you're not in the mindset to necessarily accept advice right now, so I just want you to know that although you feel alone and unheard, you have a lot to offer the world and you deserve to be here to experience the better parts of life which are possible, even if they don't seem like it now. You're such a talented writer, and you're obviously a very caring, kind person. I hope that you know you're being heard.