Trigger warning: References to suicide/death.
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I want it to be painless,
I want no-one to care,
I want it to be clean and have no blood spill anywhere.
I want it so relaxing,
In a nice, peaceful spot,
I want no-one to find me and to leave me there to rot.
I want some sweet relief,
I want to feel alive,
I want to feel something sweet and whole, some happiness inside.
If there's anything I want,
maybe it isn't dying,
maybe I just want a break from all this pain and crying.