[Mallika]

I can't believe the time has already come. What I had been skirting around my whole life has just smacked me in the face. Wish things had just worked out differently so things would be much different.

I feel like my bubble has been burst. I don't even know what the next step is going to look like as far as this is concerned.

And on top of that, they just don't get me when I've told them a hundred times already.

I have to really stand for myself because no one else is going to speak on my behalf. I will at the end of the day but it just sucks. I think I will have no choice but to give up on what I had built up in my head about my whole life.

Everything is so uncertain it's driving me crazy.