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It's understandable that you don't want to share with your boyfriend about what's been going on with you, especially after he's now started feeling better. Part of being in a relationship with someone is working as a team. You've been there to help support him, so why won't you let him help support you? I know you don't want to 'ruin it', but again, he's there to support you just as much as you're there to support him.

If you really feel like you can't come forward and chat to him about what's been going on, maybe try and confide in a friend or family member? Alternatively you have us here at TeenHelp who are always happy to help listen and try and come up with solutions to whatever issues you have.