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From what you've written, it sounds like you're in a phase that's guilt mixed with embarrassment. You came to visit your friend to just unwind and have a good time with him, but your inner most deepest feelings emerged.

Alcohol creates an environment where people can become their true self. We lose our inhibitions. Our fears, anything that makes us self-conscious, the feelings we've held back. Intoxication can strip those things from us.

Please don't beat yourself up over this. If anything, allow it to demonstrate to you some of your inner most thoughts and feelings. Let this be a chance for you to now be truthful with yourself, now that you're more aware, and be honest with everything that you feel, including whatever surrounds feelings regarding our friend.

He obviously likes this girl a lot and wants to respect the fact she placed a lot of trust in him. It also shows what kind of amazing guy he is for saying no. He could have taken advantage of you but he didn't. He said no and took you home.

It's entirely up to you if you don't want to be friends with him, but I do think your reaction is based upon the fact you feel guilty and embarrassed. Allow things time to cool down and allow yourself to think on the situation for a while.