[Mindfulness.]

So my mental health has taken over. I was doing so well and all it takes is one trigger to send me into a nose dive. Maybe I'm over-reacting and worrying for nothing like I usually do. I hope I am this time. I work casually on the weekends at a bar/pub and I received a message from one of the managers who also does the rosters and is one of the senior leaders that because we have been doing well so far with not having any community transmission cases of COVID-19, bars/pubs where I live, will no longer be needing a COVID-19 Marshall, which contributing to the majority, if not all, of my hours that I worked there. I'm hoping that he rosters me on for different sections of the venue from now on and not get rid of me.

I have been looking and applying for other full-time jobs so I won't have to continue working 2 jobs or 6-7 days a week. But I've constantly been knocked back due to my lack of experience in other industries. My full-time job is stressful and one that I do not wish to working in anymore.

I'm also studying 3 qualifications (silly me, for taking on so much work, right?) and I'm also in the process of buying my 2nd home.

Because of all these things happening simultaneously, it has taken a toll on my mental health and I can feel myself sinking and succumbing to it. I am tired mentally, physically and emotionally.