[Everglow.]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Dez. He sounds like he was an amazing man and I can fully sympathise with how hard this all is for you. It sounds like you have really great memories of him, and talking about them and even smiling at them is a good thing. Maybe try and talk to your family and anybody who knew him about those memories. I've found in the past that doing so encourages people to share their memories too, and you end up learning lots more really lovely facts about your loved ones that you didn't know before that way. Maybe you could also put together some sort of memory box for him, where you can put your photos or little objects which might remind you of him. That way, even though you've lost him, you get to keep a bit of him with you when you need reassurance or to be close to him.

If you need to talk at all I'm happy to help, so feel free to PM me anytime. I'll be thinking of you and your family as you're going through this. Stay strong