[TH Anonymous]

[SIZE="a"]Thank you everyone.

I think I'm gonna go with I've "lost" my parents. It keeps it ambiguous.

My family members will most likely not find out. They don't know much about my life right now.

The main thing is that sometimes I want to refer to close friends as family so I want to say I was adopted. Just to erase the part of my life where I lived with my bio family.

I noticed that when I woke up at 3am last night that I was crying in anger. Anger because I AM a family person. I never would have dreamed to be the one to cut myself off. I did it because I had to. Because they stopped caring about me, because they hurt me that badly. I feel like no one would understand that.

It happens to be that I don't know any coworker who doesn't speak to their family. Many are married and have kids and maybe for the sake of their kids they keep in contact. But everyone talks about how they have to get COVID tested to go visit or whatnot. Or how some of them are the caretakers as their parents are elderly. I don't really know anyone in that school who is my age who isn't married yet....there is one who does office work and she does actually have a relationship with her family. If not her parents, she can still mention another family member.

I have zero biological family that I have a positive relationship with.

Most people do ask what brought me here, where do my parents live and whether I get to visit my parents at all. Just a fact of life for them that that's what they do. It is unheard of to not at least want to visit them. Maybe covid doesn't allow but then they'd say I'm so sorry, hope you can see them soon. That is going to be triggering to me to hear.[/size]