[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]I feel I was doing so well. Things have gone down hill. I do not see my psychiatrist nurse any more, i dropped out of therapy well keep canceling the appointment or keep moving it up. I stoped eating. I quit school. I haven't showerd in a month.

I hate myself . Nothing works. I was doing well had an ESL job and found a BPD support group. I try and try but nothing ever seems enough. Whatever I do is never good enough it seems so why should I keep trying.
It hurts. I want to belong. I want to be included.[/size][/color][/font]