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Hi Ellsie, welcome to Teenhelp. Thank you for posting and introducing yourself - first of all I hope you're getting to know the forums and site well. If you're struggling to navigate or anything feel free to let somebody here know and we're always happy to help. Also, perhaps consider posting in the Arrivals and Departures forum if you fancy it - it's a really good place to let everyone know you've arrived, and people are very friendly.

Covering up SH scars is always a challenge, and obviously nobody here will ever encourage you to continue hurting yourself. However, for the scars you do have there might be some options. I'm not sure how well this will work as I haven't been in the same situation or tried it, but you could try applying some water proof concealer or make up to the areas yoour swimming costume doesn't cover. It may not be perfect though, but it might make them 'disappear' enough to stop unwanted attention. Depending on the rule or how youe swim team works, you could also try keeping a towel on until you're ready to swim so that the areas with scars on are not exposed for too long. Once you are in the water, chances are people will be focusing on other things rather than on what you look like.

Another option, if you feel comfortable, would be to confide in a member of staff or friend on the team about what the scars really are. It won't necessarily stop the questions, but having someone on your side might help take the pressure off of your shoulders a bit. If you do this, ensure you trust this person and feel comfortable talking to them - hopefully there is someone who can support you.

Remember there are tonnes of resources to help with issues relating to SH, and SH should never be a coping mechanism you rely on. There are many many ways you can stop self harming and move onto reliable and personalised alternatives. Try having a look here if you're curious and try a few of the ideas out. They've been really helpful for me, and I hope they will be for you too.

Once again, welcome to the forums! I hope I've helped a bit and that you find something that works for you. Remember if you ever want to ask any more advice, or even just make some new friends, we're happy to help.