[NeuroBeautiful]

I am open here and on certain online support groups I've shared personal stuff. I'm not open to any of my coworkers not my boss at work (principal of the school I work at) There is a reading specialist who is older and easy to talk to. I've shared things but I played it in a way that made it less vulnerable. I spoke about my experience as if I got past certain things even though I hadn't. I experiment with how much I share when it comes to her and when I do share I treat the issue like it was an old childhood thing. There was one time that she said "you remember that from years ago, it must've really affected you. And I did not confirm not deny. I just let those words air out.

I am private with the lady I live with and her family members although by now, they know I rarely ever mention my parents. I do mention my sisters as I share when we were young, light hearted things. I try hard to feel normal.

There are things that disturb me about my childhood that I actually have gaps in factual details; what truly happened. I have tried sharing some of it and it backfired leaving me feel misunderstood and minimized. I stick to being private because that way no one can minimize the details if they don't know the details. Still damage has been done and people get creative and invalidate me regardless -.-