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Feeling Asexual - December 24th 2020, 10:41 PM
Ever since I was raped this past summer, I have little to no sex drive. I no longer feel attracted to anyone, honestly.There's a few people I have been talking to, but it's really hard for me to imagine ever letting someone touch me again after being taken advantage of. I want so badly to open up again, because I am empathetic and want so badly to be loved by someone, but I'm so scared of being used or taken advantage of again. I barely even touch myself anymore because it just feels bad. I cry because I want it to feel good again. I'm scared I will never be able to enjoy having sexual relationships ever again. I used to be hyper-sexual, and now I am sex-repulsed. Will I ever find a middle ground? Any advice on how to be okay again?

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Just a few of my favorite Marilyn Monroe quotes

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"Everybody is always tugging at you. They'd all like a sort of chunck out of you. I don't think they realize it, but it's like 'grrr do this, grr do that...' But you do want to stay intact and on two feet."
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"I was never used to being happy, so that wasn't something I took for granted. You see, I was brought up differently from the average American child because the average American child is brought up expecting to be happy."