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This has been going on for so long and im so tired - December 8th 2020, 12:05 AM
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I was diagnosed with clinical depression as well as at high suicide risk like 3 years ago but I had group therapy and it was honestly one of the worst experiences of my life and I ended up convincing my parents i was ok because they got mad at me for self-harming and wanting to die. another reason i told them that is that I was completely stripped of all my privacy by them and it was if I couldnt do anything without them babying me (I was 13 then). Thing is.. nowadays I cant stop wishing i killed myself then. I dont know what to do this is stopping me from doing anything i have no motivation to do anything related to school or having any social life. i need help for this but even though im seeing a therapist related to trans-related stuff i cant bring myself to ask for help because of all the shit my parents put me through for half a year and im just so worn out from non-stop thinking about suicide its getting so hard fucking hell i dont know what to do I just want it to stop is this just going to go on until i die?