[Celyn]

I think it can be helpful to consider being 'healthy' as more of a lifestyle, as opposed to exercising and dieting to lose weight. For example, choosing to take the stairs instead of the escalator or elevator (if reasonable), choosing to walk than using transport or getting off the stop before to walk the rest of the journey (if possible). Or choosing to shop in store rather than online. Or if you tend to spend a lot of time sat down, try standing up and walking about it a bit. All these little actions can help you to become and maintain a healthy weight over the long term. While it can be helpful to eliminate snacks when dieting, in the long term, opt for healthier alternatives, such as fruit instead.

Ideally, for losing weight you should talk to your doctor, given that you are classed as morbidly obese. Adding in too much exercise could give rise to serious complications. This article by the American Heart Society suggests adding in physical activity, once you have lost 10% of your weight loss goal by changing your diet first. For an overview of treating obesity with a healthy diet and exercise, you can check out this article by the NHS.

Unfortunately, I can see how changing your diet and trying to keep track of calories can push you into disordered eating patterns. Is it possible to get family/friends involved? Maybe they can keep track of calories for you for a while to help prevent you relapsing into ED? For example, let them measure your weight and not tell you so that you can't focus too much on your weight loss or have them check in on you or do other things that aren't related to weight/eating so that you have less chance of being able to over exercise? It might help a bit if others know that you are trying to be healthier but also are concerned about slipping back into ED.

Hope others can provide further advice to you too!