I'm sorry you are struggling so much. Life will not always be this way. Depression is real and is experienced by many people. Many people have overcame depression therefore I know you can too. Its not easy but it is possible. You have a right to feel this way and your feelings are validated. What can you do to distract your self from these thoughts? If you go to school is there a teacher, friend, or school counselor you could reach out to? Psychology today website is where you can go to find a therapist if you do not have one already. Please use this crisis text line, 911 or to go your nearest hospital as they can also assist you in a crisis.
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