Taking new medications can be scary, especially if you've never had them or have even been actively avoiding them for a long time. I know, for me, I can't manage my illness without psychotropic medications. Without medication I completely fall apart. I've been on medication for many years now and I wouldn't even consider being without it. Sometimes I get in a bad headspace and want to be "up" for a bit so I stop my meds but within a few days I am raving psychotic. It's a very bad situation and I know, now, that I just can't do that.

I highly recommend them if you're suffering and it's getting to be too much to try and handle it on your own. There are downsides. You're right in that it sometimes takes a while to find the right "cocktail" of medication to help you achieve your goals. Trying things and having them not work can be frustrating, but remember, it's a process, and when you do figure out what works for you you will feel much, much better. There are side effects to some of these meds that aren't always ideal and you should discuss with your physician your fears about them or ways to mitigate them. A good doctor will help you find the balance you need to thrive and also have as few side effects as possible.

Essentially, I recommend them. I get not trusting them, or even not trusting the pharmaceutical industry, but in the long run, I think they help more than they harm.

Good luck, and feel free to PM me if you need anything. My inbox is always open.