[Tigereyes]

I hope tomorrow never comes. I'm almost at the point where 6 months ago, I said that if life was still that bad, I am allowed to finally kill myself. I've had a solid plan for months. Years? Over 2 years of forcing myself to stay alive for no reason. Yeah well, it only keeps getting worse. Only a few weeks 'til I'm allowed to finally release myself from this hell life. Just a few more weeks, and I doubt anything can change my mind. The only comfort people can offer is saying I can do it/it'll get better. Fucking bullshit. It's been 15 years of worsening hell now. I'm done. Give me 3 concrete reasons it's worth staying alive for, and maybe I'll reconsider. But no one can. All they can do is say "it gets better!" When they don't understand a quarter of what I've been through.