Recently, I have felt so out of control of my emotions and impulsions and I don't know how to change the course I'm going on now.
I have struggled/struggle with depression on a fairly regular basis, but not with the crazy mood swings and impulsive/irrational decisions. I don't even notice it in the moment, but in the past few months I have found myself looking back at what I was doing and see how stupid of decisions I'm making. In January for example, I got a stick and poke tattoo from a friend, pierced my own ear, and ditched school for most of the week. This for me was very out of character, and frankly I didn't even feel like it was me doing these things, they felt out of my control.
But after these periods of impulsiveness, that's when my mood completely flips and I can't even bring myself to get out of bed all day. I didn't really notice a pattern until a couple weeks ago, when I realized these very irrational times are always closely followed with a deep depression. I don't know how to control these intense emotions and want to find a way to balance these emotions out and be myself again. Any advice is greatly appreciated
