[Tigereyes]

My 2 friends can't handle all my problems on top of their own. My family yells at me and puts me down, doesn't believe my chronic illness is disabling, encourages me to work myself into the hospital, is homophobic, and doesn't believe in the pandemic, doesn't believe in mental illnesses, etc. So my parents would never love who I really am. I hate being me, I hate being queer. Therapy is great for people who have money, but unfortunately, not everyone has that privilege. I went in college when it was "free" but haven't had financial resources since because jobs are crap pay for long hours just to afford food and rent, and student loans require every spare penny. I have talked about all this over and over and it doesn't fix anything, and everyone is tired of listening. And I do need to watch the news because I need to know how dangerous it is to go outside during the pandemic and which of my rights I'm going to lose next and when. I'm numb to that 5 months ago anyway. Problem is no one cares if I die--95% of people refuse to wear masks and social distance, and they get in my face literally if I'm forced to briefly leave my tiny apartment to get food or something. Whatever though, I'll kill myself before I die of covid because I refuse to die that way.

Update: Yep, I'm going to lose my human rights soon.