NON PG-13 Some form of sexual addiction? | Advice -
October 19th 2020, 01:59 AM
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This is gonna sound really weird and mods delete this thread if this isn't allowed but i think i have some form of sexual addiction. It's been going on my whole i was exposed to pornography at a very young age (at toddler age) i accidentally bought a film on tv that showed a man sucking another mans you-know-what im trying to keep this as PG as possible .
And its been going on in elementary school too i would constantly think about sex and do you know what under my desk all the time i started doing it when i was 5 and at 10 my school counselor told me to "keep my hands where they belong" im 14 now and i havent stopped.
At 8, i started developing this attraction to older guys (im a girl btw) and when i was 11 i started to be homeschooled by my grandparents which was a bad idea. i started talking to older guys online and it ranged from just sexting to literally going on camera with them and watching them uhh jerk their "things" (I AM SO SORRY YOU CAN DELETE THIS IF THIS ISN'T ALLOWED) and them sending me pictures of their genitals and videos of them you-know-whatting. (again PG)
I got caught lying about my age saying i was 20 last year when i was 12 - 13 to flirt with older guys and i havent stopped but this time im ACTUALLY honest about my age (im 14) and i go on kids chats and talk to these men..
And i can't stop masturbating and watching porn too i actually almost got caught watching it on tv at 10 and i got two weeks punishment bc they were suspicious.
I've been doing this since i was 11 and i don't know how to stop i have told a therapist about this but they shrugged it off like they didn't care and now this is probably the only place i can talk about and maybe get some advice but if this isn't allowed delete because i dont want to get banned.
I've already reported one guy to police and the others i've been contemplating reporting them to cybertipline but cybertip never respond i just need help and please understand i know im 14 and shouldnt be doign this but i REALLY need help like REALLY. its like a drug addiction that i cant get rid of and people think im gross.. please help..
Last edited by DeletedAccount69; October 19th 2020 at 03:23 AM.
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