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Yeah it definitely really is hard as someone with a high sex drive to be around him again and for him not to want to do anything since before I left, he did. And I know that was a while ago and that situations change and this year has been really stressful. Its just hard when I cant go to his house and I dont have a place for him to go.

I've seen him 4 times since I got home 3 weeks ago and each was just for a couple hours. I wish I could support him and help him more I just dont know how to do that. He keeps himself busy to avoid being alone with his mind. Which I understand. I've struggled with depression for years and I know how hard it can get.

Dating someone with depression is so different though. Trying to get them to let you in and open up and trying to figure out how you can help when its really hard for anything to help in that mindset.

I love him and am in this for the long run. I just hate seeing him like this and wish I could help