[Celyn]

I'm so sorry to hear that your grandma passed away and you feel you didn't get to spend enough time with her. It sounds like you've experienced a lot of grief over the years, and perhaps never gave yourself permission to grieve fully. Seeing your dad crying seems to have triggered that grief within you and it gave you permission to cry and grieve too.

I don't think you have to be strong for you dad. There's no need for feeling guilty about crying either. Your dad lost his mom, and you lost your grandma. Even if you didn't know her for as long as your dad, you are still grieving. You don't have to hide your grief or tears. Sometimes grief can connect us- it might help you and your dad to talk about how you have been feeling. It can help to know that you aren't alone in dealing with the loss. It sounds like both you and your dad could do with some support, and maybe you can support each other