[NeuroBeautiful]

When I am activated,
dysregulated
Above or below
the window, of
tolerance
I fold into myself,
silence
Unable to speak,
my words escape me.

"Are you okay?"
I nod, yes
"What's going on in your head?"
I shake my head,
Everything
Everything-thoughts flying, emotions
rising-falling-disorienting
Inner-children running around wild
Parts of me fighting, and
which one of you left this mess,
get back here and clean it up
panic,-chaos-and-
Nothing
Nothing-blank stares, numb, fog, floating in clouds, loss of speech,
Everything and Nothing all at once.

How do I begin to bridge this gap, between
inside my own head and the world around me?
Like worlds forever apart
How do I begin to communicate?
Are you willing to practice patience with me, while
I try to open myself up through
writing it all down?

-What I Want You to Know