[Tigereyes]

A crisis line will just commit me to a hospital I can't afford, swamping me in tens of thousands of dollars MORE debt from my existing $30k of debt. And expose me, a high risk person, to covid. Finances is why I feel this way. I don't think free therapy exists in the United States. Sliding scale does, but I don't qualify, and that's still like $50-75 per session with an intern. I don't have that. I didn't make enough for that when I had my full time job with regular overtime. The only way to get "free" therapy is by being a student and paying thousands of dollars of tuition per semester. The general counselors are usually students, and they have caused such bad harm in a few sessions that I could not return. I mean, I nearly attempted suicide later the same day when it wasn't planned because it went so bad. Support groups led by random people are sometimes free, but have often caused me similar harm.