Hello Heathen! And thanks for your answer. I am happy that you share a little from your story too and I am happy for you.
You mentioned for me too look and explore CD\TV. Yeah, I coud be one of those. Believe me, I have been like this for years and I have been a lot about everything. Maybe my culture and how i have been raised is what stopes me to be what i am truly inside. But I like my life as a man too, so I dont think there is a chance for me to be transgender. But crossdresser, yeah, maybe. Cause I will be a man in the day, I will go to work, play football and I would love in the night to dress sexy, even slutty and be with some man. Also I would love to wear female underwear daily, I mean forever
. I am sure that I am heteroromantic, yeah. But I dont fantasies about both gender anymore in a sexual way, only for males, so that is what scares me and as you see, I am really confused.