[Tigereyes]

Getting dressed, eating a quick breakfast, and brushing my hair and teeth is so physically exhausting. I need 3 hours to do just this every morning. Time to work for my parents, search for a job full time, figure out insurance and stuff, and do chores. But I'm already out of energy for the entire day. Holding my phone is exhausting. Typing this is draining. So glad I just have to suffer through this until I die. No one can recommend anything to me besides hardcore stimulants (which likely won't improve my fatigue anyway and cost a fortune) or suggestions to overcome executive dysfunction. It's not executive dysfunction. My muscles just won't work. I even have lots of muscle.

Me, every waking second of my life: Should I take another caffeine pill?

Don't ask me to interpret the science for you if you're just doing to call everything you disagree with "politics."

I don't want to stay alive anymore. I just don't have means of a quick death readily available yet.

I still can't get fucking health insurance figured out because I don't know shit and no one else knows shit, and I can't go to my parents, but the system thinks I'm my parents somehow, so I can't get health insurance and my old plan is already about to expire and I'm chronically ill and high risk from covid.

Why am I staying alive for this again?