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Re: Suicidal about COVID-19? - May 27th 2020, 02:39 PM

Thanks for the responses. I am already taking all precautions in my power, but I need other people to help keep me safe. The 95% of people who don't attempt social distancing or mask wearing are implying that they are okay with me dying. I don't feel safe exposing myself much further than I already am by having to buy groceries. I am trying to enjoy good moments at home, but it doesn't change the lingering anxiety about a very real and increasing danger, just outside my door.

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It wouldn't be right to have you get back to work given that things are still "raw" from the aftermath of the peak in COVID-19 cases.
Things aren't raw from the aftermath. Things are just BEGINNING to peak because of reopening. It is not safe to reopen, but to the government and univeristy, my life is worth sacrificing for the economy. Our mayor is actually keeping us "locked down" because it's only getting worse, but the university goes by the state. Our state is reopening because of lawsuits, not safety.

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I understand you boss is limited by the university's safety protocols, but perhaps you could write an email or call your boss and explain your situation? Try requesting your boss for an extended work-from-home setting and explain how your condition might put you at greater risk of sickness. If your boss is not understanding, is there another higher-up you could contact? Usually at a university there might be other advisors/staff you might be able to coordinate too.
My boss is very understanding and supportive. I am working on an email to her. However, she is very limited by the higher ups at the university. Work from home is NOT possible with my job, so I am reliant entirely on the "generosity" of the university to grant me paid leave (which is less than I normally make). If the university calls me back, the paid leave likely won't be an option, so I'd be forced to take unpaid ADA leave if I choose to stay home. I can't afford that, and that means no unemployment benefits either. I also can't afford the hospital if I get sick, but at least I have insurance that I can't afford to use.

I appreciate the mental health resources, and will check some of them out, thanks.


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