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Boyfriend acting transphobic. Red flag? warning: long read - May 8th 2020, 04:54 AM

Sorry if the title isn't fully accurate, trying to summarize this into one sentence is kinda hard.
TRIGGER WARNING: I don't exactly know what may trigger some people, so since this deals with some pretty heavy sexuality related topics I thought it best to put a warning.
Warning: this post may get a bit lengthily. I will try to make a summary at the bottom for those who do not want to dig through all I have to explain, which don't feel bad I get it this may get slightly confusing at times.

Onto the backstory. So, today is my and my boyfriend's 3 month anniversary. We decided, with my parents' permission, to have a physical distancing date (Idk if this is something that was already happening, but it was new to me). We were just chilling out in my parents' garage, six feet apart, talking about nothing in particular. He was telling me about the benefits of being basically self employed; getting to decide his hours and taking an hour or two off whenever cause he's his own boss. He gave examples like, going to a sports game or a future kid's recital. But then he mentioned going to a pride parade. I don't exactly remember what was said, but after he said pride parade he made a face (not a good one). So, I inquired further. Why a pride parade if that was something he didn't want to go to? His reply to that was fine, if any of my future kids' are gay then I'd probably go with them. So, after getting on the topic of the LGBTQ+ community he started kind of acting weird about people who are transgender. I, being the person I am, inquired about why he felt or thought the way he does. He kept going on about being them being gender confused and things like that. He even went as far to say that he'd probably kick out his own kid if they were transgender. I tried to get a reason why and explained my position on the matter (I try my best to be fully supportive of everyone) and he kind of rescinded his idea of kicking out said hypothetical kid. We'd never really talked about transgender issues or transphobia before. I had always kind of assumed that he was supportive, seeing as he's supportive of me being Bisexual. I really don't know what to do.

So, here's where I need help. I'm worried that I've found a red flag in the relationship. Like, our relationship is a blanket and I found a hole in it. All he's done to try and fix the hole is cover it up and distract me from it. Is this a red flag or am I making this into something much bigger than it is?

My other issue is that I'm worried I'm giving him too much leeway in my mind (sounds crazy but I'll do my best to explain). So, I kinda blew off this issue earlier and said I was overreacting and he's busy trying to figure himself out. I kind of accidentally helped him discover that he basically is a very closeted bisexual. He's taking some time right now to kind of reflect and try to, basically, understand his own sexuality. Which, I completely get, its really hard. Before we really kinda lead him to a semi-acceptance he was (and still is) kinda sensitive about his sexuality. So, part of me kinda gives him a little break cause maybe he's busy trying to figure himself out that he's having issues thinking about the situations other's are in. I don't know, but I'm worried that I'm cutting him too much slack with this because he's a bit depressed with the whole pandemic and he's trying to figure himself out right now. Am I giving him too much of a break, all things considered?

(Here is the summary of which I promised): Basically, boyfriend started getting a bit transphobic when we were talking about LGBTQ+ stuff. I'm worried its going to be a big deal later on in our relationship. Also, don't know if I'm cutting him too much slack cause he's kinda going through a depressing time and a time of self discovery (sexuality wise).

I tried to make this as clear as possible but, please ask for any clarification you need and I'll do my best to explain further.

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