[Tigereyes]

Glad I could help! You don't have to use any word that is uncomfortable to you. If something sounds right, or even close, use it if it is safe to do so! Also dysphoria is not a requirement for any of it, and you do not have to transition; although, you can if you want.

Nonbinary encompases a lot of things; for many people, it really just means you don't fully identify as man or woman. My partner actually identifies with both nonbinary and demi-girl, and uses they/them pronouns. There are also other terms like genderqueer (and specifics under that umbrella) that might be more comfortable to you. There was a time I just didn't label my gender and was okay with that. I'm still not entirely sure what my gender IS, but it's not binary, and I don't have a strong sense of gender, but more than none. The terms I go with are primarily a way to simply describe my gender to others. In short, I don't think you're faking it and would encourage trying out the possible labels you like (this can be online where you don't know anyone).

Same with your name. Try it out somewhere you're safe to do so or with people you're comfortable with. You don't have to abandon your birth name either, if you like it. You could use it like a middle name? My partner changed their name, and I knew them years before. They initially told me they were trying out their chosen name in one or two college classes but wanted me to continue calling them by their legal name for a while. This could be an option for you too.

You don't have to come out. Now or ever. Or you can come out to certain people and not others. Being out to people you trust can be really nice. I was out to all my roommates (good friends) at one point in college, and it was so nice to be open and have that support. I'm out to a lot of friends, but not any family. I don't want to come out to them, and I probably won't because they aren't accepting. I have friends who have come out to parents, with mixed experiences. As much as I would like to encourage you to be you, you know your situation best, and should make your own judgement based on your physical, emotional, and financial safety.

Again, it is totally valid to question your gender and explore different labels. The point of it is to be yourself. If you find a label doesn't or no longer fits right, it's okay to try a different one.