[hocus pocus]

Sam gave some great advice! Talking to your current partner when you're comfortable about things when you feel ready to discuss them could help. It might give you time to reflect or determine more in terms of what feels best for you.

Everyone is different but in my life experiences I have learned that living with people who are responsible for your abuse is very difficult. It is possible to improve when you are still in this environment, but survival mode tends to prevail. There comes a point when you've done all the improving you can do in that environment. I have heard that it is a lot easier to work on yourself and make healthy changes when you no longer live with your abusers. It is awesome to hear that you have a plan to leave, and talking to someone if you can is a good idea. In the meantime, do the best you can with the environment you're in (and it seems like you do that already).

I don't know if this would help or not but sometimes I like to think/plan what my life will be like someday. What kind of house do you want? How would you decorate it? Are you going to get any pets? Aside from the more physical and situational aspects you can think of how much better you'll feel when you're finally free - and how proud you'll be of yourself for working so hard.

You can do it. Keeping you in my thoughts.