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I don't really think there is any good answer to your question. It's something that you yourself will have to discover. That said, there is, unfortunately, a level in which one has to be aware on the affect they have towards others in terms of their behaviour... which we can't always do. A person can't always be aware of how they behave towards another person, even if they try to. There will always be some aspect we haven't considered. However, I do feel that if we put ourselves into a position of those we surround ourselves with, and think on our behaviour from a logical standpoint, we can understand the situation from another perspective other than our own, and possibly even answer the questions you have asked.

Reflecting on my life growing up, I wasn't the easiest person to get along with. I was so in my own world that I never considered some of the ways my behaviour affected others, and why they behaved towards me in the way that they did. Realistically it was because my family, for however much they loved and cared for me, they never truly understood how I was feeling. After all, we cannot truly understand how another person is feeling, no matter how emotionally close to us they are.

They can't ever understand how you're feeling, nor can anyone whom you have a relationship with. You're not a burden, you're someone who is just extraordinarily different to them, and difference is not always easily processed.

I know this isn't really the answer you're probably looking for, nor is it likely of any use, but it is honestly the best that I can give.