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New to online support groups, so forgive me if this seems a little stiff. I've been dealing with my anxiety on my own lately. I used to be in therapy, and taking medication, but I had lost my insurance and had to stop all of that. (I do have insurance again, but I'm waiting for new insurance cards and stuff.) I plan on going back to therapy and back on medications, but I'm really struggling here, which is why I decided to reach out (on here).

As of late, I've been dealing with major depression (even some suicidal thoughts, though I have NO intention on acting on those thoughts), major anxiety and some serious paranoia. I know that anxiety can cause some paranoid thoughts, and vice versa, so I'm trying to remain as rational as possible, but it's gotten hard.

When I'm home alone I find myself sitting in my closet most of the day because there aren't any windows in there. (It's a large closet, so I'm not cramped or anything.) It's gotten so bad I can hardly leave the house because I'm so paranoid of other people and places.

I guess, I joined this site as a way to talk about what's going on with others who may have been through the same things. I do have a support system at home, but they don't really understand on a personal level what I'm going through and dealing with. It's hard to be very frank with them about what's going on in my head and the things I think about.

Not really sure where to go from here. Just trying to hold on until I can get help.