[Tigereyes]

I'm still financially fucked, but now, differently too. Work is so expensive when you're poor. Only internet friends to offer emotional support, parents can't afford to help much financially. There's no light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could afford therapy, but obviously a financial crisis doesn't allow for that, especially when I couldn't afford it before.

I spent a year trying to find a reason to live so I wasn't just surviving a day at a time and miserable. To experience life. But now that's gone too. I wish I'd never had that bit of hope. Then at least that couldn't be taken away from me too.

Happy birthday to me tomorrow? Just after my life suddenly goes from decent (with a lot of good moments) to losing $1500 unexpectedly back to the university for unpaid mandated holidays (I planned for the actual holidays but not the extended breaks). I can't afford December, depending on HR taking their time.