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Hey all,

My dog was put to sleep when I was about fifteen, so this isn't a recent death. For the most part I am at peace with it now although it's still tough to think about how sick she was at the end.

Lately I've seen posts on Facebook a lot, about people's pets' last days, general pet death, etc, as well as one post that urges people to be with their animal when they are being put to sleep because you're the last thing they see in that environment where they may be afraid or hurting.

I wasn't with my dog when she was put to sleep. My dad and brother in law took her to the vet and if I remember correctly my dad was in the room with her, but I didn't go with her and now that's suddenly hitting me and I feel so guilty and bad. Misty was my dog more than theirs and I wasn't there for her because I didn't think I could handle it at the time. And now I feel really selfish about that because what if she was looking for me or felt scared or afraid because I wasn't there? What if her last moments were filled with fear instead of peace because she was looking for me to tell her it was all right? Misty was always there for her when I needed it and I wasn't there for her.

I also feel guilty because she was about 9 or 10 when she got sick and died and I feel like she could have had a few more years but we couldn't afford to take her to the vet to be examined and I feel like shit because I couldn't even do that to make her feel better, or at least TRY to make her feel better. I feel like I did something wrong or caused her death somehow.

I didn't know what I'm asking but I'd love advice on how to alleviate some of the guilt.

-Dez