[Celyn]

I haven't slept properly in the last few nights and it's starting to get to me. I overthink and read something and feel like a bad person and I'm just going to ruin things. Once again I'm left to feel selfish, a burden, a drain and an overall annoyance. It's so hard to try to keep in control of things, more so when I don't see the effort paying off. Wish I could accept me and others accept me, just the way I am too.

Hopefully just a few more days before I hear something. Hate waiting.