[Tigereyes]

I couldn't go to the huge networking event. The anxiety was too much. Depression too. I know I'm a disappointment. This time it is my fault. But fuck it all anyway. Not like I'll get a job anyway. Who the fuck would want to hire me? Clearly no one out of almost 400 employers. But that's okay. Soon I'll be gone. No one will notice one less application. Or care. I'm just a burden on my friends and family. So, I'll be doing everyone a favor.

Paid over $300 toward my student loans today. First payment. Still no real job. There goes the money I was hoping would go toward me leaving this broken home... There goes my last shred of hope. Forever.