[Tigereyes]

Making my first student loans payment of a few hundred today or tomorrow. Still don't have a real job. I hate my current job with my parents, but I can't afford to not work for them, and I'm staying at their house, so I have to work for them regardless. I feel so hopeless, worthless, trapped. It's hitting more now. Reality is sinking in, and I see no light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe there is no light. Sometimes you get buried inside, and the tunnel leads to nowhere, and you die.