[Tigereyes]

Fuck that bullshit. I'm not allowed to be exhausted after ANOTHER 12 hour day after 2 weekends of moving out of the apartment and cleaning the damn thing mostly myself with over full time hours monday through friday both weeks before? AND sleep deprivation? And a tonof other shit? AND no fucking support? I even tried to hide it from you, and you have no clue how horribly dependant on caffeine with protentiators I am. But it's all about who jas it worse to you. Fucking leave me alone. I can't wait to move out. If I'm alive long enough to get that chance. Bet that would shock you too. Even though it's so fucking obvious. Like no shit, of course I've been suicidal. Totally understandable. But that kind of self-validation I've struggled so hard to find is a huge part of the problem.