I need someone to talk to and have no one.

If I tell my D that I'm thinking about cutting he will just text my dad and tell him to check on me.

If my dad finds out he will either get mad and say something sarcastic like 'Quit working if it's that bad' or he will get worried and tell me if things are that bad maybe I need to go back on ssi and I can't do that and get married.

I'm trapped and the only way I can think of to cope is to cut myself to Ribbons. Even if I had to go to the er they might not hold me for three days and if they did I might get out by Monday and no one would know.

I'm just feeling like I'm trapped and nothing matters.