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Re: Are you alive? What do you live for? WHY do you do what you do? - April 9th 2019, 03:09 AM
Shock:
why do i feel this way, get outside, try to be better, fail, SH returns.

Denial
Nah I'm fine, i shouldn't feel this way. people have it worse and I have friends/family to help anyway. why would I feel this way.

Anger
Got very frustrated at myself for my anxiety, my depression, my issues. Had night terrors and increased Anxiety.

Bargaining
What if i stay drunk/high all the time? that'll make me forget, right? It kept me alive and eating last time anyway.

Depression
spent like 4 weeks in bed.
I ENJOY NOTHING!
I WANT NOTHING!
WHY LIVE?!

Testing
tying a noose, slight cuts into my wrist, small OD to trial if vomiting ect would kick in before death. Testing if I could and how...

Acceptance
Finish LMoP, watch Detective Pikachu, GoT, End game... Then I end my game... Who knew DMs could be the player to die?