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I have so many mixed feelings. I do my very best to support him and myself, my family too. I try to listen to him when he has problems, or help him with his work... but this is rarely reciprocated. Last night I thought it was really sweet how he said he wanted to check up on me, but it ended up just being so he could do sex talk and offload his problems onto me and then go away again after he was done.

It's the same thing over and over and I'm getting really tired of it. I feel taken advantage of so many times. Every time I try and talk to him about any issues I have he just says he has to go. I can't tell if he knows and doesn't care. Knows and can't help do what he's doing. Doesn't realise what he's doing, or anything else. I can only conclude he doesn't have the emotional capacity to deal with me... and that's pretty upsetting.

Somehow everyone else finds time to talk to me, or reassure me and listen to me. Someone else even offered me a hug. But not him. He has no time for me.