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Gosh. I think I miss you. No wait, I KNOW I miss you. Even though we were over a year and a half ago, and I have my boyfriend now, I've missed our times, and always wondered what we would be like if we were still together.
I always wonder what you're up to, what you've done with yourself, what you're doing next year. Do you still play guitar and drums? How about piano? Do you still like warhammer stuff? I've missed my comfort blanket.
I'm so sorry that I hurt you. I now know how it feels, and if you felt the way I did when he dumped me, I'm so so sorry. I never wanted to cause you pain, even though I obviously did.
I so want to talk to you, even though I know you don't want to talk to me. I wanna know how you're doing. Still friend's with all those guys you were with years ago? Have you got a girlfriend? Is it that girl who you half cuddle up to at school? What's her name? Do you ever think about me still? Do you bad mouth me to her? Do you think she's pretty? So many questions, and no answers.
I know you're leaving school in two days, and I'll be leaving for good 2 weeks after that. I want to say something to you. I don't want to never see you again. I don't want to leave things as they are. I want to tell you ... good luck for the future, and I'm so sorry for what I did, and I kind of do regret it. Have a good life, get married, have kids and be a good person. You were the best boyfriend I ever had, and I never appreciated you, and again I'm sorry. If you're like that with other girls, they'll be so lucky. Make another girl happy and love her the way you loved me.

I miss you, baby

I love you