[SomeGuy03]

Hi there. I'm 14.

I'm currently on the verge of a panic attack. I have had this problem for months and I'm sick of this endless cycle of feeling so sad. I'm interested in BDSM and I'm so creeped out by myself. I try to accept it but everytime I masturbate to bondage or something I feel so dirty and wrong. I feel like I'm objectifying women. And then I try to not be into it which in turn makes me feel awful because I can't help being attracted to it. And it's all I think about day in day out and I'm just exhausted. I have no friends or family to talk to and talking to strangers online is my only way of venting. I understand BDSM is about consent and trust but I feel like I'm some creep who likes seeing women tied up. Why am I like this? ( I need to stress I do have anxiety which is pretty much the cause of all this).